All that I need.

After yesterday's crazy day out, I'm down with a bad flu, a severe headache and today became a sleeping day with my piano lesson cancelled and not being to make it to church with Cai and company. This may be a good thing cos it's been ages since I've gotten a good rest, with all the school works, heartwork and fun that's going in my life, I swear the holidays were too short.

And Qiya, you've got to grow up. It's no more a primary school kind of thing, you are a fifteen now, in dunman high where if you don't think hard, you're never gonna make it be it in studies, or socially. I know this is irritating but c'mon, you are in a school like this so you've got to be like this, you have to think more, deeper and not as shallow as before. Pls note that, people tend to judge you more than you even know, well this is part and parcel in life, and I remembered that Cai once said that in the puberty of your mindset, you tend to think more and question yourself more.

Cai, Song is helping me with this maturing of mindset by provoking me to think more about myself, to think about what kind of person am I, and how am I treating the others.

Here goes,

My dearest dearest Cai, I know I have been keeping all those "emotional things" to myself and not letting you understand them, I'm glad you understand that under the happy cover I always got onto myself, something is going there in my mind, or in my heart at times. I know that it is not obvious about how I'm feeling, that's why you tend to say things that make me feel wrong, or even hurt in occasions, I must not blame you for that, but blame myself for not letting my emotions and feelings made known to you, or even Song and Rochelle. This also made you'al doubt if I really treasure you as a bestie, and Song Rochelle as good friends. I'm glad you told me a few things you felt about me that day when we were having otah. (: So I'm gonna tell everyone that I really really love you, my bestie and even thou now we are still not able to talk about everything under the sun, I hope we will, just like the msg you've sent me, we try to make this picture a perfect one okay? (: And I promise that I'll pour out everything and drown you with everything that's going on in my mind at any point of time okay? Although most of the time there's nothing going on in my mind. So that you won't find me so hard to understand anymore, and we can be very open to one another, and are really true besties for life. (: You are really a blessing.

Prawn Yingying, you are a god-sent, I really don't know what to do when you are not around with me. You make SJ, school so much more tolerable and better, Yellow Penguin loves Prawn Yingying. (: Let's go "tracking" again soon, I miss the evening track luh.

Come to think of it, I really wonder how will be my life now if I have not met Cai and Prawn Yingying, and I should take coming to Dhs as a blessing cos there, I met my bestie, Prawn yy, the best girlfriends like Song, Kakashi, Renji, Rochelle and Ichimaru, of course, and dearest Anzio.

Not forgetting Paulwen, GThen and my nearest confide. (:

K I shall end here, byebye.
With all my love. <3

[edit]I'm feeling very very insecured now, for I don't know what reason, but insecurity is really getting into me, yucks. Maybe I need to hire a securtity guard.[/edit]