Yep. I definitely did.
Every now and then I still miss you, I still wish that some bad things never happened and we had a better idea of ourselves.
Sometimes, I still do wish that I had the chance to carry on plans with you, make new plans with you and once in a while, I wish I could enjoy the better things in life with you.
Sometimes, I still wish that I could grow up with you, do life with you and be part of your every growth, hurt and be proud of your every being, and everything else you've managed to achieve.
Sometimes, I wish I could be the one to make you continue seeing the better side of yourself and sometimes, I wish I could see the better parts of me through your eyes.
But I do know that what I miss isn't who you are right now, not at the very least. I miss you, as a vision in my memory and as whom I think you used to be.
Just like some rocks, my love for you is there but they'll never surface. You can't possibly unlove someone, you can never do that.
Well, at least I'm happy to say that I've finally learnt how to love someone, or that I'm actually capable of entrusting my heart to someone fully.
I'm proud of this love and at the same time, I'm fearful of it.
I'm just glad that I have this space to "scribble" on because you never knew, or remembered, or bothered about this. You've been forgetting things since, a few months into work (and I know you hate me saying this but it's so damn true) and I guess if that is where you truly find contentment, I'm happy to let you go.
And as I missed you today, I hope you're feeling as happy and as full as I am too.
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