It's amazing how many times the heart can break. It's crazy how one can throw himself/herself into the whirlpool of hurt again and again.
Each time, my heart dies a little. And each time, I wish it completely dies so I don't have to go through the same things again.
You often tell me that you love me and I'm great and all lovely to you. But very often too you make me feel like the lousiest person on earth. You make me feel inferior to everybody else; every girl you meet, every girl you check out and the girls you used to love.
You make me feel like the loudest screams are silent. My words falls on death ears and all you need from me is a nod, and a smile, and that all's okay. I should be void of emotions and be agreeable to everything you say.
You don't think about the reasons behind my emotions, you don't think about why I say certain things, you don't think about me.
You fight for people's attention and love. You give them your all without them having to fight. And you make me fight for your love. Wounded, and still fighting.
I'm asking for help, for a stop, to cease the war and for you to see how hard I'm trying. I'm bleeding all over and I'm asking you to save me, to dress my wounds and make me brand new again.
But you don't see a need to bend over for me. And I know, you never will.
What is love when you simply magnify your efforts and diminishes mine?
What is love when you don't give two hoots about my feelings.
What is love when you don't rush to my side the moment I need you and what is love when you stuck a spear on my back instead of watching my back for me.
What is love when all words are empty promises.
What is love when all actions constitutes hurt.
What is love when you don't even give me any.
All these while I'm just pathetically waiting.
12 comments:
every relationship will have its difficulty man. I am sure he still loves you very much just that we sometimes take each other for granted as we are so comfortable with one another. Don't be disheartened, heres a song on his behalf to bandage your wound <3 One year older, one year brighter and wiser! :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0VAOAW7_Dg
Nope he doesn't. Am kinda tired and sometimes feel that I should stay single for awhile. Too many times of heartbreak.. But thanks for being so kind. :)
The chances for someone to know each other, and then like each other and subsequently fall in love and get into a relationship is so minute. Maybe could think back to how it all started and stay strong babe. I dont know the exact details so I wont be able to comment much but I hope you can cherish this fate! However, if you choose to walk away make sure its gonna be a fresh, new phrase of your life :) In any case if you need anyone to talk to, I will always be here :)
Cheer up Qiya!! I'm only 6000+ km away if you ever need a listening ear! ☺
Thsnk you friend, for listening and actually caring. :) Just curious, were we the same year in Dunman?
YOU ARE SO FAR AWAY. 😕 But thanks Pencil you best!
Haha no worries! Nope! I think a few years older and hopefully in more capacity to help :)
Also just curious do you do any workouts to keep in shape? If so what do you do? You look so toned and fit! :)
Haha you definitely did. Thanks for being so sweet really. Do I know you! It's like I'm so so so curious who you are haha. But thanks for being so supportive.
Not to sound like some, bitch but I really don't exercise much. Eating's probably the only exercise I do and no I'm really not lying. I'm not fit at all like I have cellulite all over my buttocks. But if I do look fit which I don't but um the only reason I can think of is that I used to swim a lot? Like twice a week but that was 3 years ago aha.
woah thats some good genes you inherit haha! No problem! Dont worry the veil of anonymity is to remove any hint of judgement and pressure for you to speak your mind! More often than now we all need some kind of respite and I am glad I can help in that way:) If you are curious I will find someway to talk to you more regularly once i figure out how to PM you anonymously. Maybe through your tumblr:)
Haha not good genes! I guess stress and breakups helped manage my weight too. There's always something good out of something bad. I'm really curious who you are aha hopefully we can be friends on day! I love meeting people face to face. ANY DO YOU THINK I SHOULD START A FOOD BLOG. Been at the back of my mind for the longest time because I really love food. But not confident enough to do it and there's so many out there already. Will it look pretentious but I really love food hahahaha.
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