Always a storm.

Didn't realise how lost I am, that I'm literally shapeless and floating to wherever I can.
I was never a firm believer of horoscopes but I think I'm starting to feel the Aquarius in me.

The fact that I haven't wrote in a while meant that I was busy, right? Then again I'm not too sure if I've been busy with the right things. I hate how there's a constant battle between my head and heart (and probably along with a couple of other organs and my huge army of fats) and the tranquility within me is always disturbed whenever I feel that this zen within me is about to reach its equilibrium.

That's life, huh.

As much as I love the feeling of moving forward and, changing, it scares me how fast everything can change and how I'm always not ready for that. Just booked tickets to BKK this weekend when I'm already flying to my wonderland on the next. I just hope that all these money I'm squandering away will amount to something and at least I'm able to find the missing parts of me, in me.

I honestly am not sure what I'm writing about because my thoughts are in a whirlpool and it's literally all over the place.

But don't get me wrong, I'm actually happy now as much as I'm a conflicted person between being extremely unhappy or extremely positive. This, disturbance, may not be a bad thing. I'm just not sure how it is going to turn out but so far you've been filling me with nothing but joy. Though I'm not a fan of John Green but, he did describe my situation aptly, "slowly, then all at once".