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Dear God,

Even though I've to be studying for my paper, I think a few minutes of prayer will do the wonder and, it's going to be worth it. It's been awhile since I wrote out my prayers on this space and it's been awhile since I've desired to entrust everything into Your hands.

"Let me be the Author of your life." That's what You say.

It's been a couple of years where I took things into my own hands, looked for love, contentment and joy in all sorts of (wrong) places and I gradually steered myself away from You, from where You've called me too and despite being thankful for You, I've been trying to control my own life, my own relationships and I hadn't realise I was so obsessed with everything else that I forgot about myself. I forgot about You.

With Ben, things were good and I thank You for him every single day. For now, things are out of control and I'm not sure why he has been, not the kindest, to me.

He really broke my heart.

So God, before my paper which I failed to study for due to all these earthly things again, I pray that Your presence will be with me throughout, that I will have the wisdom to think, recall and do the paper to my very best. I pray for focus, for enlightenment, and for peace throughout the paper and the days to come. I pray that You'll constantly remind me that You have my best interests and You'll be with me through all my ups and downs, and You'll be there to catch me when I fall.

It's difficult to let things go now, but I pray that You'll show me that what's current is not forever, and only You will endure forever. Teach me how to take the back seat, teach me how to love, teach me how to be gracious and set me free from all these hurts and crying for months and months.

In all things I entrust into Your hands Lord.
Amen.