Birthday in an hour and I'm not feeling okay.
To be honest, I don't even know when was the last time I felt full and happy. It seemed like year ago, and I've been living life on the downs without knowing how to be okay on my own.
Every year, I question my existence and I wonder why people always leave me when I give them their best. I question why people just see the worst side of me when I try to earn their approvals like a dog eager to get an owner's love. I wonder why I'm not who I was and I wonder why I'm afraid of everyone and everything. I get confused as to what my goals were and I don't know why I lose sight of them through this process called growth.
This gets more upsetting each year. It's to a point where I can no longer put my emotions into words and, I can't write about it anymore.
3 comments:
Happy 24th Birthday Qiyapenguin92! Hope this year will be more awesome year for you :) Stay optimistic - as everyday is a new experience. Remember that no one will care about yourself more than yourself, so be less harsh on you as nobody else would be so hard on you! 8D May I know what industry are you working in now? If possible give yourself a break and pamper yourself just for today. Cheers!
It's 93! And omg are you from SJAB or sth. Hahaha. Penguin's what my squadmates call me. Thank you so much! I left my previous job at ArtScience Museum and am currently in an ad firm. :) Sorry for the last reply but thanks so much for the sweet message.
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